|You'll see this a lot on here. It has to be one of my|
favourite and most inspiring images.
Happiness, this blog, started out simply as a place to record my feelings about my cross-dressing, something I don't or can't talk about elsewhere, and was so called because I realised that the overwhelming feeling I got from it was one of happiness. It rapidly became a pretty standard journal type blog where I recorded my life for no real reason other than to record things I thought I might forget later. Then I started adding other things to it, like my attempt at fiction, and general sundries.
Then people started stopping by and commenting on my posts and these lovely people made me... well, I liked the fact that kind people were saying such nice things. If you would like to know where to start then may I suggest two monster posts detailing my first experiences with cross-dressing and romance, two recurring themes.
|This is one of my favourite images too|
because she seems so free of inhibitions
Secondly, I live in a sexless marriage. Again, I recommend searching rather than taking my experiences as being indicative, but the term can be generally understood as meaning a married couple who experience sexual intercourse up to ten times in a year period. This has been revealed to be down to my cross-dressing and, with a recent diagnosis, my ASD. Tilly and I reached an agreement that I can underdress and have the undergarments washed but this was rescinded within six months of having made the deal. It is unlikely to be restarted. I came out as submissive and that just made Tilly hate me more.
In terms of the effect cross-dressing has had I recommend looking at me Going Out and then follow up with the Discovery by my wife before checking out the initial musing on this under My Addiction and My Wife. After that, can I recommend some positive musings such as Try It, Reflections and New Year Listings? Other points of potential interest include Pressure Points and I Didn't Get Where I Am Today. A recent experiment with chastity can be found by searching for 'Chastity' in the tags.
|This is my favourite imaginary friend whom I believe created|
the Universe. He's saying Hi.
I'm Christian, but pretty low as far as church goes, Church of England flavoured being from the UK rather than the more international Anglican. I'm not too fond of the 39 Articles (non-believers and Catholics who take Holy Communion go to Hell, seriously?) but most of the rest (and I stress most, not all, because I have no idea why women are barred from some leadership positions or celibate gay men are allowed) seems to fit what I think I know about my favourite Invisible Friend whom I believe created the Universe. No, I don't refute basic science and I actually think the theory of evolution is pretty darn groovy. I'm white and Western, which means that I have many First World problems: like cross-dressing, really not an issue I suspect in places that don't have 24 hour web access.
What else? I'm middle-class, pretty comfortably so and certainly less precariously than my mother or my father were before they had me. I have money in the bank, a mortgage, a car and three children. I have had but one sexual partner, my wife, and I used to be okay with that, it's not for everyone, but being One Flesh is a pretty big responsibility. I guess I kind of hoped that I would have more than 58 sexual encounters in my life but you don't get to plan these things in advance. I have loved my wife, but that love is now dying as the relationship flares and dies. It's okay, I write the screed, your views are entirely allowed and encouraged!
|Here is Marx. His beard and hair a testament to his|
philosophy of "from each according to his abilities to
each according to hi- fuck you social conventions on
I, like every other blogger, love comments. I am hard to offend online. After all, I'm the one spewing stuff in the public domain and if people feel moved to comment then who am I to argue with that? Basically, if you have something to say, please do say it. If you think I'll be offended, say it anyway - if I am offended that's not your problem.
|One of my favourite (yes, I overuse the word) images from|
Limited Audience and, coincidentally, a position I should
one day like to experience.
All in all, this place is a place where I strive to be open and honest in a way that I find hard to manage in real life. It is a place where I feel safe in my anonymity to say things that I don't feel safe enough to say elsewhere and it is a place where I tend towards the stream of consciousness style of writing. Please, enjoy your stay here, even if you read this and never come again. If there is anything you think would help make a visit here more pleasant or simply make this a place you can understand and navigate more easily then please let me know.
a dear friend online: Elle-Jay. Click on the image to
go to her lovely blog and see more of her work.
And this was made for me by the lovely Dee. For the record,
that is a fantastic dress and those shoes are great. Yes please.
Click the image to go to a wonderful place.