|I dunno, this looks like a prelude to rape rather than a tender|
relationship to me. I think it's the bloke's haircut.
Recently, Tilly has made a bit of splash in her writerly life - she's been asked by a huge blog to do guest posts and now has an offer of a book on the table. A reputed publisher (who, incidentally, 12 year old me wanted to write a book for) is extending their remit into earlier and non-warfare history and they have spotted Tilly's blog and so have encouraged her to propose a book to them. Her friend has also been offered the same and, being without children and writing full-time, has already made a proposal and been offered a contract. This latter point has knocked Tilly a bit and she is in a funk. I can see why, this friend tends to out-do or out-shine pretty much everything Tilly does (in Tilly's eyes).
|#Lon-don Nights: it's a party time#|
Tilly has been very ill since that Monday. Something we did caused it (no, it's not an STI). She languished with it for the week then finally went to the Doctor's on the following Sunday where she got anti-biotics. These had side-effects and, I'm sorry, I called it; Tilly was worse on them than she was off them. I mean, they cured the problem, but she suffered with aches, pains and worse until the course was done. She's also spent the week saying how sad she is that we can't repeat what happened on the Monday. She's also mentioned, often enough, that she's 'due on'. I rather suspect that this will occur and then there will be something else, like last time, that breaks it for Tilly and there will be nothing.
So, how much of this is down to my behaviour? I've said before on here that I find things difficult when in... hold on. TMI.
|Either me or her, meh, never going to|
In short, I find it hard to 'turn towards'. I often find myself interpreting silly little actions as though Tilly has done them on purpose or as part of a wider scheme to make me feel crap. I mean, I could say that this was a consequence of having learned that there was a campaign by Tilly like that in revenge for something or other, I never did find what. And she did, she piled on the little things to try and overload me (and succeeded by the by). But even if I have a legitimate reason, it still doesn't change the fact that, no, there is no campaign against me. The article suggests that couples that don't 'turn towards' often are the ones that will end up loveless or broken. And, lo, we are there in many ways. Rather than being happy to have my wife back early I am slightly put out that I haven't had a chance to cross-dress.
Hell, last night I was out at an actual pub having an actual drink - something I have never been able to do - through the kindness of Tilly. I get to socialise at work and stay there till late without recrimination and often active support from Tilly. The day was fine, by the way, the Boy and I had a very companionable time doing, well, not a lot.