|I can heartily recommend this mead. Really.|
I paid a tenner, well worth it!
|Apparently strict teachers are females.|
It would be nice to dress again. I recall that this time last year I was spending some time that way. There's little opportunity when I'm getting up late (well, around the time that the children get up) and Tilly is working in the spare room. There's also the time we spend together that has increased a little from the nadir following the move, but that's a different issue.
So, that's me. My beer brewing is going well, it's burping nicely at the moment four days into the process and so there's about two days to go before adding in the flavour. We'll see. Leaving the last batch a little longer did no harm and arguably improved the flavour. All in all, a good week.
Other news: Tilly and I.
We had a blunt chat on Friday that resulted in some hugs, kissing and even holding hands in public. We have snuggled watching a film and we have snuggled in bed. Last night we sat on the sofa together for the first time since Easter I think. Still no compliments, but we are kissing when I get back from work and in a morning - granted it's me that is initiating (and it is getting harder to do after the initial burst of availability) but at least she's not shrinking away. Yet. There are still red flags, of course, last night we both sat on laptops and when I asked her to attempt the human sexuality map (I first asked back in March, 21st March as it happens) she complained that I was "going on about it". She said "you've mentioned it every day for at least three days" and I countered that three times in three days wasn't "going on about it". She disagreed, but she did look at it. I suspect it will be a while yet before there's any response, but I'd rather she thought about it.
I guess the discussion about sex on Friday, where she revealed that she really didn't know anything about sex, I found a bit of a surprise. To be the leader in a sexual relationship given my... limited experience in the matter was not something I was ever expecting. More to the point, I have done more reading around the subject and thus know more terms than she does, even if I have no idea how to apply them. I was shocked to discover that she has never used nor does she own anything to help her masturbate. I honestly thought that all women had something these days. I asked if she wanted anything, she said she could think of many other things she'd want first. I countered that I would probably get her something anyway and we could both laugh at it for a bit. I explained that I had always assumed that sex would be something we would work at and discover together, trying out new things, with no pressure for either of us to finish off and expectant of laughter and failure along the way. I tried to say that sex, for me, was something that was playful and silly and open to getting things wrong - because we were married, I thought we'd learn together.
I'm not sure how that's gone down. She denied ever refusing sex, but admitted that the examples I was providing must have happened. She denied withdrawing and claimed it was in response to me not trying to kiss her. I didn't push that one, but accepted that we would try to kiss more. We shall see, we shall see.