Yeah, about that. This is a place where I have really gone into depth on my cross-dressing but, with one exception, I haven't really discussed my other oddities. The principal of these is my apparent love of bondage. When dealing with the situation with my mad ex I mentioned a few times that there was a lot of bondage involved, and I did try it out with Tilly not long after we met. She wasn't really a fan, after a while she said as much and despite my taking handcuffs to that four poster overnight stay there was no take up since then. I think I'm still enamoured, possibly more than I am with the idea of cross-dressing. Interestingly, with the bondage, I appear to be very much a dominant.
I mean, obviously I like the submissive aspects of it, that much is pretty clear from the way I describe my addiction, but I always run into the brick wall of the fact that I'd make a pretty useless sub. I'm too particular and controlling. I am a control freak. The times that I have enjoyed bondage have been when I'm very much in charge and the images/stories that I choose to check out invariably involve women being tied up etc (and I should stress that I seek out consensual stories, even in fiction I'm not a fan of people being forced against their will). That would suggest that I like the view rather than the feeling.
The beginning of this is slightly more interesting than all I've written on cross-dressing, well, to me at least in that I still don't know where and how all this started. I have my theories and ideas regarding the cross-dressing, like that memory, but with this particular addiction I have nothing. It's been with me for about as long as I can remember and totally predates puberty or sexual feelings. Indeed, for the longest time I didn't know it could be sexual. I associated cross-dressing with sex a good few years before I associated bondage with it. I didn't even know it had a name until after I knew about cross-dressing. Also infantalism - that didn't have a name with me until I'd gone to University!
If I'm going to be honest I guess that I ought to be discussing these issues too.
Ah, I still have loads of work to do and I'm still under the cosh so that will have to do for now.