I have been trying to focus on the positives in my life, in an attempt to break a negative chain that I keep running, and also I've been attempting to stop being so hard on myself. This is on the advice, well the not beating self up thing is, of my CBT professional. Given that she's trying to help me and that my issues cause the problems they do in my familial relationships it behoves me to at least try. Some resolve here may be just the ticket, in other words.
So, in 2012, I resolve to:
1. Not whine so much: basically I should make sure that this blog is mainly upbeat, that I focus on the good points and events that happen in my life. Say I manage to dress, I shall focus on the nice feelings that come with it and avoid the guilt about the fact I keep it a secret, it's not like I haven't tried to make it a shared thing!
|These are nice shoes. £7 if I hurry. I somehow doubt I'll get|
them, and the boots are nicer, but still £25...
|I really liked playing this. I wasn't very good,|
but I liked it a lot. I suppose I miss it.
Part of me is actually still pretty amazed that I have any page views at all that aren't me, so the fact that I seem to have regular numbers is really something. I didn't think that would ever matter quite the way it does now that it's happened.
Anyway, as ever, there is loads more that I'd like to be saying on here, revelling in the freedom I get on this corner of the web, but I have to get an early night. I never seem to write the posts that I plan, I always end up dealing with other things - perhaps this is a positive, it does mean I'm more honest and, looking back, I suspect that I'll appreciate that more than some well-planned piece on think-y stuff.